Saturday, July 24, 2004 @ 3:05 AM
went to orchard with alison today instead of my usual plan: to jb and meet my friend who's going back to aus for his studies..reason?!--->cos i'm scared to c him[2nd ex] again...like wat germz said.."jas,u shouldn't go jb even though u wished to c him...it'll only make things complicated with neva endings..."i've listened to germz~regrets?!i've got no idea..it's too late to say all these already....
supported kenny's band[crossbred] for their performance @paragon...it's cool though i've got no idea at all wat they're jamming abt!!after that,met up with kenny and accompanied alison back to wdls as she had to meet her bf~
had dinner at civic centre @mac and told kenny abt my problems...he gave me a "scolding" in order to wake me up...said that i was stupid to believe and take to heart wat my 2nd ex was telling me...haiz~i dunno y i'm jus so stupid lo..mayb becos i'm jus a soft-hearted geR?easily deceived ger?!i dunno..i'm trying hard to follow my heart..but it isn't giving me ans..hinting to use my brain and come out with solutions myself?!
y is everyone facing relationship problems?i tot love should be the greatest gift from god?!or izzit jus a suffering from god insteaD?!
i jus read shini's blog...it says "y mus we wait for the moment tt we lose it then we'll realised tt it's impt to us?!" "everyone wanted to be loved by someone..but sometimes,it's jus weird..god jus plan some1 tt u dun love at all to love u & some1 whom u love so much to love others..." i agreed with her..y can't ppl cherish wat they had till it's gone?!
jx & kenny both suggested to me that i should take a break out of all these relationship...BUT,how does it help?!oki..i can listen to them..at most,i'll feel better after that..PROBLEMS still exist riTe?!it won't vanish till i've solve it myself..i've gonna face it no matter how..or when...
haiz~tears shed for them again...when will all these come to an end?!
|*%~ waT woUlD u Do iF eVErYtimE u wAntEd somEonE theY woulD neVa bE theRe?! ~#*|
